WilliamSmith wrote: ↑June 22nd, 2022, 4:34 pm
Also, not pushing you to share anything you don't want if part of the experience was traumatic, but that's very interesting about energetic distance healing! I've heard about that distance projection of Chi, but only read about it.
Okay,
@WilliamSmith, you've persuaded me. I'll try to recount my whole traumatic Kundalini experience and road to recovery since my testimony will surely be of interest to those who are interested in Qi Gong and paranormal phenomena in general and may even be useful information for anybody who is suffering from the same problem.
Kundalini Awakening Gone Wrong (Serious Stuff)
Part 1: My Premature Kundalini Awakening
In the fall of 2020, during full lockdown, I decided to add Kundalini Yoga to my spiritual practice. I was already an experienced meditator and had practiced meditation every day for the better part of two years and so I thought that I'd begin with Yoga too. After all, I had plenty of free time since the lockdown was being imposed quite aggressively and most people were confined to their homes. I found a Kundalini Yoga instructional DVD set and some good online materials and began to study the postures and breathing techniques and would soon implement them into a 20 minute Yoga routine before bed.
The first two nights of Yoga practice were pretty uneventful except for a really strong orgasm following masturbation on the second night but on the third night I experienced the sudden awakening of the Kundalini energy while lying awake in bed. I felt an intense heat and pressure in the region of the perineum as though a stream of extra energy was flooding into my body and then it began to ascend slowly through the front of my torso in a winding motion. At first there was resistance but then the energy forced its way into the heart region and I felt a sharp pop as though something abruptly came open (maybe it was the heart chakra). I saw with my mind's eye a field of golden energy permeate my whole body and was immediately overwhelmed with an intense feeling of bliss and absolute love and entered a state of ecstasy. Then the Kundalini energy continued to flow upwards through the throat region and towards the temple. I felt my consciousness expand considerably for a brief moment. Once the awakened energy calmed down I lay in bed in absolute awe and would feel extremely energized and mentally lucid from them onwards.
A few nights later I had another intense Kundalini awakening. Once again the energy emerged from the region of the perineum like the first time but this time it shot up my spine and made its way to the base of the skull. This time the pressure was immense as it pushed its way upwards and I feared that it was going to break my spine. That feeling lasted for more than an hour but my instinct was to relax and allow it to rise. Once the energy completed its ascension I felt an ineffable bliss like last time. I continued to feel extremely energized and mentally lucid. To this day I'm still not sure whether the energy ascended up the Sushumna channel or whether it simply forced its way up the ordinary
Du Mai meridian which runs upwards along the spine.
My third Kundalini awakening occurred a few nights later and was very similar to the first one. The energy once again ascended through the front of the torso in a winding motion and I experienced a similar kind of intense bliss. All seemed to be going well.
Part 2: A Sudden Shock to my System
However, shortly after my third Kundalini awakening, I felt a sudden shock throughout my whole body and the extra qi energy abruptly came crashing down into my lower body. From that moment onwards I could feel an uncomfortable heaviness in my legs, an agonizing burning throughout my legs and perineum, and a strong sensation of blockage in my lower abdomen. I would later discover that some of my meridians had gone into reverse flow due to the massive overload of qi following the Kundalini practice and the energy was therefore stagnating in my lower body instead of rising like it's supposed to.
Unfortunately the heaviness and burning sensations weren't my only problem. A sudden reversal of energy flow in the Liver Meridian on the right side caused a major blockage in my lower abdomen through which this meridian runs and this in turn brought about qi congestion throughout all of that region. The result of this was the obstruction of the natural flow of qi to the penis. My dick just went completely limp. I couldn't get an erection at all and my ability for orgasm was almost zero. That was the beginning of a living hell of impotence which would last for months.
Strangely enough, one night about a month later the qi spontaneously came back up and resumed its normal course. The reversal was put right in what seemed like an auto-repair function of my body's meridian system and the heaviness, burning sensations and erectile dysfunction were all gone. It really does seem like the qi has an intelligence of its own. I was so happy and thought that I was off the hook but unfortunately my celebration was too soon. Later that same night I felt strange heat sensations throughout my upper body and found myself hypersensitive to sound stimuli. I couldn't listen to music without the sound seeming too overpowering. My meridians were so overloaded that my senses were excessively magnified to the point of discomfort. Then as I lay in bed trying to sleep the energy came crashing down into my lower body again and I was back to my previous hellish state with all of the negative symptoms.
During the next few months I suffered tremendously as I frantically did research into my condition and desperately looked for solutions but most of the Yoga teachers and holistic medicine practitioners who I contacted had no clue how to treat my problem and could only offer me bogus advice of a New Age persuasion (one New Age woman even told me to hug a tree in order to "ground" the Kundalini). I continued to look for solutions. I attempted to unblock the blockages through meditation techniques but to no avail. Eventually my aunt found the website of a renowned energetic healer who was based in London and offered Reiki and Chakra Healing including in the modality of "distance healing". I booked a series of online sessions with him without knowing what to expect.
Part 3: Energetic Distance Healing
I had my first session with the renowned energetic healer and all I can say is that he was the real deal! He was at his clinic in London and I was in my home here in Yorkshire and we spoke through a WhatsApp video call. Now I shit you not! The energetic healer who used his own gift of clairsentience to scan my energetic anatomy somehow began to manipulate the congested energy with his mind at a distance and I was even able to physically feel the energy moving around from place to place. Then I felt something open up at the base of the spine. He explained to me that he was redirecting the energy up the Sushumna channel which runs up the spine and that that would put it on a more natural course and thereby relieve the pressure.
After my session with the energetic healer I got up off of my bed and walked down to the kitchen when all of a sudden I felt tingling at the base of my spine and the shortly thereafter more of the energy began to rise up the spine. I could now feel a constant sensation of burning in my neck but at least the pressure in my legs and perineum was relieved to a significant degree just as the healer had promised. Moreover, my erectile function was back on line. You can't imagine how many times I jacked off that night!
Since the Sushumna channel relies on the chakra system for its transportation of qi the same healer gave me a series of chakra meditations in order to keep them open and functioning correctly. These meditations worked and the Sushumna channel continued to redirect a large part of the excess qi.
However, unfortunately the healer's intervention only served as a makeshift fix to treat the symptoms and buy me some much needed respite. After my sessions with him I assumed that I would just have to wait for the excess qi to diminish by itself through lack of simulation (qi levels go back to normal if Yoga or Qi Gong practices are desisted) but what I still didn't know was that some of my meridians had gone into reverse flow due to the initial shock of the Kundalini awakening and that it would be necessary for me to correct that problem.
Part 4: Acupuncture Treatment
In the spring of 2021 I corresponded with a very knowledgeable Yoga teacher. She immediately recognized what my problem was (i.e., the reversal of the flow of the body's meridians) and advised me to seek out acupuncture treatment. This was my glimmer of hope.
In the following week I looked up various acupuncturists in my area and even spoke to some on the phone or corresponded with them by text. I spent the whole week weighing up the pros and cons of each of them and still had no idea who would be the best option. Then one Friday night I went to bed and saw one of the acupuncturists in a dream. In the dream the acupuncturist who was a Chinese woman with a TCM clinic in a nearby town was performing acupuncture on me. I took this as a sign that I needed to go to that particular TCM clinic and to this day I believe that the dream was a revelation of guidance from my own oversoul or higher self.
A few days later I had my first consultation at the TCM clinic. Dr. Li, the Chinese woman who I saw in my dream, welcomed me at the reception and passed me on to her husband Dr. Chen who carried out the consultation. Dr. Chen immediately recognized my problem too and told me that he had treated a similar case of a guy who suffered a reversal of the qi energy in one arm and one leg and a near-total paralysis of those limbs after obsessively practicing Tai Qi with wrong technique over an extended period of time. I perceived that Dr. Chen knew what he was talking about and felt that I had made the right choice of acupuncturist.
Over the course of the next year Dr. Chen performed intense sessions of acupuncture on me with the goal of making the qi energy in the affected meridians flare up in the right direction and reopening the blocked areas. Progress was slow since the reversal of some of the meridians was just so bad but gradually the meridians were reopened little by little. As my acupuncture treatment advanced the symptoms of heaviness in the legs and sensations of blockage progressively lessened. The anxiety lessened too. Life became increasingly more bearable thanks to Dr. Chen's expert treatment.
This one's for the naysayers. I know that qi and the meridians of TCM are not merely theoretical concepts. I've experienced what it's like to have severe qi blockages in certain meridians and I can even feel the meridians flare up and reopen and thereby resume their natural flow after acupuncture treatment. Let me tell you something. The trajectories of the meridians are more or less exactly how they are depicted in the TCM meridian anatomy charts (the detailed, anatomically correct ones and not the simplified ones). When Dr. Chen places needles in the Liver Meridian to make the qi energy flare up I feel it flare up along its traditionally accepted trajectory from the foot, through the lower central abdomen, then under the ribcage and finally up through the temple region and towards the bai hui point at the crown. There's no mistaking it. Qi energy is a real phenomenon and the meridians really does run where the traditional sources say they run.
Dr. Chen is a brilliant man. He has helped me tremendously with his treatment plan and now I sense that I'm close to full recovery with only a little bit of blockage remaining in a pair of meridians in the head region. In fact Dr. Chen himself told me that very few acupuncturists would know how to treat my condition and that I'm very lucky to have found him. I believe him 100%. I tried to explain my problem to various acupuncturists both in real life and on the internet and none of them knew anything about this sort of thing. I will be forever indebted to Dr. Chen. He relieved me of terrible suffering and guided me back onto the path of health.
Final Comments
Kundalini Yoga and Qi Gong can be beneficial if you practice them with a true master and really know what you're doing. They can promote good health, sexual vigor and even psychic sensitivity if done right. But these practices also have the potential to be very dangerous when performed recklessly or incorrectly and can lead to immense pain, physiological dysfunction and emotional distress. In my case a premature Kundalini awakening messed up my life for the better part of two years. If you wish to practice the energy arts please do your research in advance and do it safely. Don't do something foolish like I did.
I decided to post about my experience at the request of
@WilliamSmith who is deeply interested in Qi Gong and related phenomena. I will leave this here not only for anybody who is curious but also for the benefit of anybody who might be suffering from something similar themselves should they casually stumble across it.