what you say about children is true, but I would never think of such things. I would have thought asians, with their strong family values, would never think like is, just decadent whites with their Me me me attitude.
For fathers of all races and all cultures, there is great joy and pleasure in sacrifice for your family and children. It as been so for 1000s of years. My children are the best thing I ever did in my life and bring me the most satisfaction. Yes I have to pay R35000 when my daughter must go compete in europe for a week ($200 per night hotels and SA government does not pay for whites to represent them). Yes I had to get up before sunrise on weekends in winter to take her to train. My son goes overseas to compete as well. Yes coaches used to cost plenty each month. Yes many times I tell my friends I can't go on bike trips due to my kids. With all the money and time they cost I could have lived a playboy life travelling everywhere. Do you know Chad le Clos who won all the swimming medals for SA? On TV his father said it cost over a million to get his son there and he had to take a bond on his house to afford the Olympics. But so what? Fathers have always done this and have taken great pleasure in giving up their own needs for their children. For me no regret. That is what men are like. I see many asian men on here also think like this. Good on them. They are Good White Men, even if many of them are yellow or brown

I grew up the very old school white way. The asians here maybe have very much the same upbringing when they mention distant fathers. My mother stayed home and she was responsible for kid and discipline. Unless we got out of hand, then she would refer it to my father. Like if we disrespected our mother. Trust me, you didn't want to go there. The police or the school were mild by comparison to disappointing my father. My father was like being sent to the Sgt-Major for company punishment you would quake and feel very small, like a failure to live up to the standards. But each time I deserved it. He did teach us what it means to be a man and your duties and responsibilities. Being a man is not just chasing your own pleasure. Those lessons stood me well and I have raised will disciplined successful happy kids.
If I have one regret it is we didn't sacrifice more and continue to follow PW Botha's Total Onslaught campaign, tell the world FU, and continue sacrificing one month a year of our lives in the army. Better we give up our holiday, and 100 of us die each year than 1000 women children and old people get killed in their homes each year by darkies. Now my kids must grow up with no potential for work due to affirmative action, hold their ground against hostile savages, and surrounded by weak willed whites who prefer to run away. So I have raised them to get a skill and be very good at it, as only with technical skills will a white survive.
I still do my security duties every three weeks and am always on armed response stand-by. I asked a mid 20s white why don't you join us? he said no it is too dangerous. So I told him so you expect men your father's age who have day jobs, families, and who have done more than their share over the years to contribute so you can sleep safe? These young men today feel no shame at all. A few years ago when my son was about 11 or 12 while I was kitting up to go on an operation, my son asks' papa why do you always have to go?' I said because if men don'tgo he blacks will come kill us in our sleep. One day you will be 18 and you will also do it. He asks 'don't you get scared?' I replied every man is scared but you still go, because it is your duty and you must overcome it. 200 years ago boys of 6 would defend their families from savages when their fathers were on kommando. You can do it as well. I told him you have the radio, and if any alarms go off you call and someone will be here is less than 3 minutes. You also have your rifle so protect your sister. If you look inside of yourself you will find the strength. The kids must learn that as a man your feelings should not control you; your duties to your family, your God, race and volk should. You must Man up and face your responsibilities as men carry their societies.
Regarding bullying, I was once called in to the school because some darkie bully pushed my daughter's friend off the slide in the school yard. My daughter smacked this darkie proper onto his back (the advantage of being an athlete lol).. A bunch of darkies, like the pack animals they are, jumped her but a group of white boys intervened and routed the darkies. My daughter was accused of starting a racial incident. I told the school she did right by defending her friend because your teachers are too afraid to intervene or they will lose their jobs over a race case. I told them if would not or could not prevent racial problems in the school, my kids will stand up for themselves and their mates. I asked my daughter what did the school tell you? she said they told her that violence doesn't solve anything. I replied do the blacks bother you now? She said no, they are afraid of her. I kept quiet. Obvious lesson there for her to see: with darkies sometimes violence works and it is is the only way they understand. Eventually they had to segregate the school yard 'by age'. It was older black boys preying on whites. I tell my son the same. If you see a kid being bullied by a group, you and the other white boys, you jump in and intervene. You white boys must stick together or you will be prey and you must defend those not as strong as you. He is a big strong kid and has always been the biggest in his class. At 15 now he is well over 6 ft. Obviously they have never been bullied as both are strong and very popular. And their papa tolerates no shit from darkies


Winston, the letter your father wrote, it shows he is a very decent Good White Man. A man worthy of respect from other men. It must have been very difficult for him to express that. It would be for any real old school man. He has done his best, yet you tell him he has failed as a father. In spite of this he still expresses remorse and feelings for you. Something men do not do easily. Every man feels he is failing as a father. I do as well. To be told that by your kids is hard. It is a real blow. My daughter wrote me a letter a few weeks ago saying thank you papa, you do so much for us and we sometimes don't appreciate it. You have taught us so much and we are eternally grateful. We might stray sometimes but we will always come back. Very different from what you wrote your father. I also got some nasty ones from the kids but they always reconcile and apologise and they know papa will always be papa and will weather their tantrums. You are a bit old to have tantrums at your parents.
My advice to you would be to reconcile with your father, as he is a good man and worthy of your respect. And your kid, if it not too late. A boy needs a father. Fathers instill and discipline. Without fathers society will collapse into a dung heap. Look at fatherless black american culture, and the kids of white single moms. I am not sure of the protocols and customs of asian cultures, but they seem to be similar to the ways of old style white values that have been cast away by the Me me me generation, of which you are subscribing to if you don't reverse this trend. Adopting modern western ways has not brought you joy. Perhaps what some of the asians say here is good advice for you. They would understand your ways far more than I can ever. Chanta and Marcos make perfect sense to me.