You sound like a woman I knew who lived in a nice area and lived a privileged life (her parents worked hard and gave her property) but chose to date an x convict. The guy did about 10 years in jail. And from what I was told, he was a big time drug dealer in NYC in the 80's. He did time for manslaughter.ahardy57 wrote:I will tell you a man introduced himself to me, nice man, later he told me he killed someone and spent nine years in jail for murder. For months this man has been chasing me, romantically. He said he loved me. I have never felt so much chemistry in my life, except with one man in the past and now this man. I know I could marry him if he becomes a different person. Even if he is poor, and has nothing to give me. He is all alpha. Talks like this, "What can I do to get you in my bed, grab you by the hair and drag you into my cave" and on and on. Muscles, tattoos, the whole nine yards, talks about who he beat up in the past, what he's going to do with other people. Even had the SWAT team with sharpshooters after him early this month. Tough guy. But he makes me feel a certain way. I cannot control that. I have not let him kiss me, because I know that It will be wrong to get involved romantically with this guy. Who knows if he won't kill me down the line. I still care about him, but it is dangerous for me.
Yet, the chemistry. If he changes his life, I might like one day to be his girl.
Why do girls go for convicts and ex-prisoners? They are everything we girls are not. Strong, tough, reckless hard, confident, unpredictable in their behavior. It takes us out of our feminine lifestyle of 'don't do this, don't do that'. I myself, was shocked at my primal responses to him, and wondered at first if there was something wrong with me or twisted.
But no, he brings to my mind the male before he urges became tamed. And in civilized society we need tame men, or serious disorder will ensue. But somewhere in women the prototype persist. We want the nice guys to be there for us but we long for the savage male. He talks about how he likes Conan the Barbarian. But in some ways, he has become Conan the Barbarian to me.
This woman was PROUD that she was dating a former "kingpin" who could not keep down a job because he would get into fistfights with other men at the job, and now he had a drug usage problem himself. She took care of him; he did nothing but sit around the house and sleep, eat, and F888K her.
I met the guy myself, even at 40+ years old, he was an absolute brute and very masculine with big muscles.
I could not understand it, why would this single mother of 2 risk having a man like this around her children? What does this woman see in this man? She don't even need him financially.
Well, as time went on, I stopped caring because I figured out that the woman was equally as messed up in the head. She was a long time alcoholic, did not take care of her children properly, and was severely emotionally messed up that even her family members such as her own sister disowned her. In fact, this woman was the most mentally unstable woman who I ever met other than women who I have seen cracked out on the streets!!!
It was a sad sight to see, a woman who was once young and beautiful ruining her own health because of alcohol, her kids having to grow up in a dysfunctional home, and no family other then her mom because everybody else disowned her.
One other thing, I lost 2 friends to murder, and unless the murder was out of self defense, I think you're are dealing with a very sick individual who likes to boast about the fact that they killed somebody; and I find it equally as sick that you would entertain, and feel "safe" around such companionship. Really, he had sharp shooters after him? Just like in the movies! Cool!!!
Actually no, it's not cool! I have been to the funerals and it's not a pretty sight to see parents having to bury their kids, and to see the children of the deceased looking around wondering what's going on because they are too young to understand.
I mean really, I'm tired of people like you (mainly women) who never even come close to living the street life somehow find it "fun" and "entertaining" that a person could kill somebody else like an animal. I guarantee you that your thoughts will change if somebody murdered one of your family members!!!!!
Also, I will even go as far as to say this guy is a FAKE gangster! REAL gangsters don't talk s*** or brag about their exploits. At the very least, he's dumb to even be telling you anything because you could easily report him to the police and let them know you know of a guy they are looking for.
Anyhow, thanks for giving me more reasons to stay away from western women, you come off moderately intelligent but yet, you still have deep rooted "issues". And I hope you never have any kids, I bet all your sons (just like dad) will turn out to be criminals and villains adding to our already efffed up society.