S_Parc wrote: ↑June 21st, 2018, 6:07 pm
Winston wrote: ↑June 21st, 2018, 5:40 pm
Ok well then what is your f***ing problem
@S_Parc? Why are you bashing me and hating on me for no reason? What did I ever do to you? I know one thing for sure: Happy healthy people do not go on forums bashing someone who never wronged them the way you are doing now. Only unhappy insecure people do that kind of thing. A man of true strength, like Chuck Norris or Steven Seagal or Sylvester Stallone, would never do that. They try to make people stronger like them and bring them up. Happy people try to SHARE their happiness with others. Only unhappy people try to bring them down. Even a Christian fanatic like
@Adama can see that. I certainly would never bash or attack someone that never wronged me. Especially if he's honest and genuine and seeks knowledge and wisdom, which are traits I admire.
I think you can guess ... I know of many Pisces. And yes, I'd heard about all the soulmate stuff but yet, I see a trail of failed relationships, unhappy ex's, children
you name it.
I'd come up with a notion, years ago I'd noticed that for the most part, ppl make the most significant changes between the ages of 28 and 35-38 but not so much afterwards. It's called being 'set in one's ways'.
So where are we? ... I'm now nearing 40 and you, are halfway towards 50, but are still going to Angeles City (& such parks), instead of having a Taiwanese wife or long term GF.
For a site known as HA, this doesn't sound like a destination but a path, not well thought out. Perhaps that long term relationship thing isn't in your cards along with others on this forum? If so, then what's so difficult about accepting it?
As you've stated, you don't fit into the way *the ppl of the world* are, then perhaps you need to recognize that one's age bracket, does set society's expectations (even outside of America). A man 40+, without a wife (or prior wife) is not seen as long term relationship material for a number of women out there. Sure, there are exceptions and such but on the whole, that's the way the world is.
I'm a Pisces with Scorpio rising and Gemini moon. That means two water signs and one air sign. Geminis are also wanderers and two faced too. So I don't have an earth sign to stabilize me. That means I'm like a cloud or free floater, ala Momopi's "tree, grass, cloud" analogy.
Well dickface, not everything is my fault. I wanted a wife in China when I was 40, but God kept blocking me. I swear. Something kept holding me back. Some higher power. If it happens to you, you will know it for sure. It happened to me. Maybe it was for my own good, since I wouldn't make a good husband for them either. And all the open minded freespirited Asian girls want white guys. Hence the dilemma in the other thread.
So my life is f***ed and off track. What do you want me to do? Kill myself? Why are you trying to make me feel like shit about it? Do you get off on making other guys feel like shit? If so you are a BAD HA bro and I ought to deck you and punch your lights out, cause you deserve it, f***ing asshole.
Right now I'm in my parents place in Chiayi, Taiwan. The energy here is very bad. Everyone is uptight and unfriendly and wants to be left alone and cannot socialize normally. It's like an antimatter universe. Very toxic. There's a vortex here called Tropic of Cancer. Maybe that's why. A negative vortex. I can certainly feel a negative energy here. It makes me restless and anxious and uptight all the time, and shortens my temper, kind of like California does. LA is like that too, the vibe shortens your temper for some reason.
So then I go to Angeles City, which is fun, but is toxic too in a different way. The men are atheists mostly and only care about hedonism. And the women only want your money. If I go to Vegas, also negative unfriendly place too. So I'm stuck in a vicious circle. With bad luck. And the universe likes to block me a lot too, for some reason.
If only this, if only that.... then maybe I wouldn't be in this cycle. I could go on for hours.
There are tons of stuff to do. I gotta fix many website problems, write a book and publish it, make documentaries, make YouTube videos about a lot of stuff, waste time replying to stupid posts here in the forum too, write groundbreaking essays that will answer timeless questions and mysteries based on my research, etc. How can I ever get anything done? There are not many hours in the day, the days feel shorter, and I keep needing 11 hours of sleep for some unknown reason. A lot of weird stuff is against me, and as atheists have pointed out, free will is an illusion for the most part. So we don't even have much free will.
A lot is riding against me. You are only making things worse. Do you get off on that? If so you are sick and sadistic and I ought to punch your lights out. When will you be around so we can meet so I can kick your ass? There are lots of assholes on the internet like you. Why am I even bothering to respond to you? If I replied to every asshole online, nothing would ever get done. I'm already backed up by a decade. I should have returned to Europe in 2006. If you can't slow down time or reverse time, then stop wasting my time asshole.
I can't f***ing believe it's already 2018! Time is moving way too f***ing fast! My mind is still in the era of 10 years ago. Stop trying to make me feel like shit you f***ing asshole! You are one miserable son of a bitch for sure!
